Wednesday, November 01, 2006

Just the two of us

" This I say, therefore, and testify in the Lord, that you should no longer walk as the rest of[d] the Gentiles walk, in the futility of their mind, 18 having their understanding darkened, being alienated from the life of God, because of the ignorance that is in them, because of the blindness of their heart; 19 who, being past feeling, have given themselves over to lewdness, to work all uncleanness with greediness. 20 But you have not so learned Christ, 21 if indeed you have heard Him and have been taught by Him, as the truth is in Jesus: 22 that you put off, concerning your former conduct, the old man which grows corrupt according to the deceitful lusts, 23 and be
renewed in the spirit of your mind, 24 and that you put on the new man which was created according to God, in true righteousness and holiness. "
Ephesians 4: 17 - 24

As I read this text for my morning devotion, I've been challenged by the words that speaks to me. Certainly any person would know what I'm talking about when they read of the verse itself right? One would say "Yeah, live holy lives as the Bible preaches, nothing new" or "Yeah, we gotta be like this like that to be this and that" such idealistic words and visions people can have.It's not wrong to have such idealistic dreams but if its just for plans without actions towards it then it will continue to be as a plan.What I'm stressing on is the impact.Does these words impact you?Or rather are they just mere words?Do I see myself being renewed in the spirit of my mind, putting on the new man which was created according to God? Am I putting off my former conduct that corrupts according to my deceitful lusts?Or am I a hypocrite that often wears a mask outside and always speaks the right things but never practice them?

This verse I don't see it as an encouragement or an advice, I see it as a command itself.I am charged to NOT walk in my old ways anymore but walk in the light as God have enlightened me with His truth.I was once walking in the ways of my own desires and lusts but now being shown the truth, I cannot be ignorant about the truth because if I would, I would be living out a lie by knowing the truth.It shocks me sometimes when I read this verse over and over again just to find that there is no such thing as a compromised "Christian" that have different lifestyles to accomodate himself.It is either Christ or yourself.There can never be 2 rulers in a country.Same goes with our lives, where only one can be our master.It's either ourselves or Christ.It all boils down into a decision.Decide therefore today if you call yourself a Christian, do you live your life
just like what Ephesians 4:17-24 speaks about or are you compromising your life?

I am still striving to deny myself and subject myself to Christ.Have I succeeded?I would'nt say so.Have I failed?Too many times..But the decision still have to be made..It's either you or Christ..I pray that both you and me would always choose Christ.Amen

Thursday, October 19, 2006

I saw my GM in cyber cafe!!!

It was Tuesday, I decided to have a game of DotA at Infinity with my friends after work.Drove there as usual and had a wonderful game there pawning all the players..haahaa..Then it was 9:30 pm and I played my last game before I head to the counter to pay.When I finished my game, I headed to the counter and lined up to pay the bill when I saw someone familiar.Someone who is most unlikely to be found in a cybercafe, someone who pays my check every month and someone who determines my yearly bonus...Then I turned around and saw my General Manager playing castle defend of Warcraft!!! I was stunned for 3 seconds there before I come back to my senses.I just couldn't believe my eyes and what I saw.Of all the people, my GM????Well I had a Section Head working colleague that plays with me often but...GM???WoW...That's a shocker..For once I thought GM's only play golf with his high class friends and dine at overpriced clubs and talk businesses.

Never have I thought the impossible, my GM plays DotA....That thought sank with me for the rest of the night and I thought of inviting him for my gaming sessions as well every week.As I went to work the next day, I told my colleagues about what I saw and all of them got shocked for 3 seconds before responding..hahahaa...well, we have a gamer here and we WOULD love him to play with us!hahahaa...

Well, after that encounter, I believe that games are not really for teenagers or kids (Someone actually calls me keena for playing games...:( ) but nevertheless the old as well.I believe that behind a successful man is always a man itself. My GM is also human, flesh and blood, and there was no shame in playing games at his age.It was pure entertainment and fun! Now I am more than convinced that playing games is not only for the young but also for the old! hahahaha..its just the matter of interest..:D

Monday, October 16, 2006

Welcome to Existence

The title of this post is taken from Switchfoot's hit single 'Dare you to move' and i'm sure most of you have listened before, mainly from Spiderman 2's hit and a Walk to Remember movie, now can even hear it from the radio.Well to everyone's suprise, I'm back!! Long have I lazed around and got myself busy with all my work and preparation for Bible camp..Phew not that
I don't have any time to write my blog but most of my free time are taken for World of Warcraft already!hehehe...well you might think or figure that i'm a game freak or a 'No Life' stud, but I can assure you that I can give up those stuff and lead on a life that you possess..Haw Haw Haw just that I have a passion for games as much as some of you have passion for music, cars, shopping and many other different things. One thing that we all have in common is our existence here on earth. We cannot deny the fact that we don't exist in this world and in fact if our existence here does not leave any impact or memory in anyone's life then indeed we fail tremendously in our life. At least your parents will remember you or being impacted by you
at any time right?

Well, the topic that got me back into blogging is this: Am I merely existing or am I living? To differentiate the terms used here is quite simple and I guess most of you readers are quite good at English unlike myself here.( I can't really use grammars that well so forgive me if I did
use any wrong grammars ya..:P) Back to a more serious note, actually this question was asked to me 6 years ago by a preacher that spoke about Life.It got my mind thinking on this question for the rest of the time.You know,if we don't question ourselves on what we are doing in our life and our purpose in life at all, then I could conclude that you are really just 'existing' in this world. What does it mean to have a life?Hang out with your close gang all the time, always do things together or sell yourself to your work in order to secure your future to have a better 'life' or just relax as long as you're happy, everything will be 'fine'.What I'm trying to picture here is what reality is really like and where am I in that spot. Honestly, sometimes I do not know what I'm doing and what I'm doing. I get up in the morning, wash myself up, drives to work to ASE while listening to Gocha calls by Hitz.fm, got down to my computer and starts to go thru my
work list, goes to the canteen to grab a bite, comes back to work + chat via MSN + surfing the net, lunchout, continues my work till 5:15, goes home, eat, wash up and play World of Warcraft until 11 then I'll sleep.

Again this schedule repeats itself for the next 4 working days of the week. If you have much better and meaningful life than mine then that's great but you still need to ask that question.HAHAHA What does God think about my life?I believe what God thinks of my life more than what my friends think of my life cause His opinion means more to me than any of my friends. Of course I'm not saying that my friends have no say or advice for my lifestyle lah! I will still listen to them and will take their advice when I see truth in it. =) The bible puts it this way :
15 See then that you walk circumspectly, not as fools but as wise, 16 redeeming the time, because the days are evil. Ephesians 5:15-16. Hmm.. God wants me to walk my life circumspectly which means that I gotta check every step/decisions i make in my life and direction in my life not as a fool but as a wise person. What does wise and fool mean here? The following text states : 17 Therefore do not be unwise, but understand what the will of the
Lord is. Which means that whatever that does not conform to the will of God is foolish.Hmm..The statement states asks us not to be unwise, its like saying that we can choose to be wise or unwise.I believe this statement to be very true because I believe as Christians we should know what we live for and what God wants us to live for instead of finding our own ways to manage our lives. But this only applies to Christians, and not to others you might say. Well I think its the same. Why?

We were all created for a purpose and we have to find out what that purpose is right?No one would tell you that your purpose of life is to serve the government and die as a loyal servant of the government while the government feast on your achievements due to your total commitment without regarding whether you exist or not.If then, do we make our own purpose?I guess not because I asked most people and quite frankly, they don't know
what they are living for and just live as if they had no goal in life. Well not all, some of them tells me they wanna do this, do that, wanna get their first million by the age of 30, own his/her own business by the age of 27, early retirement, live life to the fullest(man, if you don't even know what is life how can you live it the fullest?another doubt), achieve their first name in the Guiness Book of Records etc.These people have goals and aims in their life but ultimately, aren't all this self made purposes?What if there's a spannar throw into your wheel of life and ruins everything where you have to live by the edge of the sword?Then things become meaningless to
you and you condemn God for not giving what you want.Cruel and unjust God. In the end, we might not know what we are here for and what our purpose of life by just 'existing' all along till we die.What we just did up there was just merely wanting to live for ourselves by making our own purpose and we end up existing. If a clock functions as a clock does, it is functioning
well; if it's not, then its there to exist till utterly destroyed by its owner. Destroyed by its owner, scary thought huh if we were the clock but to think about it, all of us are OWNED by God because He gave us life and a freedom to live our life.We only need to choose whether we want to function as God wants us to be or we want to create our own function which we were
not made for.If you've read this post till this far, then I would like to thank you for your patience for doing so.

All in all, I would like to conclude that we have the freedom to choose which life we wanna live but the question still boils down to this whether are you existing or living?I've found my purpose of life which is in God.Have you? :)

Friday, February 17, 2006

Feeling the shockwaves of holidays..

I love February..The best month of the year..Why?you may ask..Because this is the month with the most public holidays in it..hurray!!!But then as time passes by, its gonna end soon.No..my precious sleep and gaming hours back to normal again.Work will be 5 days a week again no longer 4 days a week.Gotta be accustomed back to 5 days week again.Well I know that I'm ranting here and you may find it hopeless to see me acting this way.Hahaha..Let's recap and see what happened in the month of February for myself.

First was Chinese New Year which I had a long break of 4 days from work and I went back to Kedah to visit my grandmother for the reunion dinner.The next day,was Sunday and went to church for the 1st day of CNY(Ever the first time I've ever experienced CNY in church,somemore the first day of CNY..Lol).Visited some friends and made some income from it.Angpows!!hehe anyone who's single will surely love this red packet.hehe oopps not just the red packet but the money inside which is of utmost importance.In fact, they seems to be my bonus for the year for being single and unmarried.haha..stay this way, I would be collecting angpows every year without fail..muahahahhaha..

Secondly, was thaipusam, had another day off for monday since it landed on the weekends.It was another day of rest and enjoyment for me as I get to sleep more and wake up later..haha man i love the long weekend thingy.Now I perfectly understand why working adults longed for 1 day holiday even though its just 1 day.hahaha feels good to be at home and not going to work.I could play World of Warcraft for the whole day if I want to, or hang out with friends if I feel like it.So much freedom and time but then..That time is coming to pass and now the month with most holidays are going to be over..Nooo..furthermore, March and April have no public holidays, Double NOOOO..sigh, I guess I gotta live day by day to the fullest.As for now, I gotta log off and get some gaming 'excitement'.hehe

Sunday, February 05, 2006

Finally my PC is BACK!!

Hi everyone, forgive me for not updating this blog site as my PC was sent into the factory to fix my graphic card and that took me 2 1/2 weeks! Finally my PC is back and I can blog again!hahahha...Recently my life without PC was just terrible and simple.Came back from work, ate and bathe then head to sleep.What a simple life and boring one..hahahhaa..I had to struggle through those days without any PC games, internet chatting and onlining..and it was so boring..arghh.

But those days were over and I thank God for it.Believe it or not, I actually prayed to God for PC! hahaha..Hope that the PC will be back before CNY else I will be growing mushrooms at home.After I prayed, God really took mercy on me and granted my wish on one fine Friday just before CNY week, the technician called me up and told me this great news that my PC was fully repaired and asked me to come and get it! I couldn't believe what I heard and I thank God for the answered prayer.This reminds me of a verse in Scripture that proves God really keeps His Word. The verse is taken from Philippians 4:6-7

"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus"

Thursday, January 05, 2006

New Year Resolutions?Made to be Broken?=p

Blessed new year everyone! Hope that it's not too late on greetings of the season..well, new year season is over, now waiting for chinese new year season to come. Even one month before chinese new year, I have already heard malls playing chinese new year songs even during christmas! haha..anyway, there's no way of turning back time..so myself just greet you guys here..even though its 4 days late..haha. =)

Besides all those holiday moods we get during new year, most people tend to make new year resolutions for the new year or try to improve themselves for the better good or get a girl friend/boyfriend or find a better career or drink their first can of beer LEGALLY. Hehe..alot of wacky and serious thoughts given to such resolutions I got from people. Well as for myself, I haven't gave much thought to it yet but I guess its always the same. hehe. but then I never succeeded in keeping them! ahaha..what's the use of making a promise or covenant with yourself and fail fulfill it?

Therefore, I have given some thought for this year's resolution and that would be...: Keeping the promises I've made with God or other people. hehe.. I know this requires great determination and discipline but I guess if I can't do what I promise, then resolutions for me is nothing then right?Anyway, there's a verse in the bible for me to share with you guys/girls regarding the resolution i made and it's taken from James 5:12

' But above all, my brethren, do not swear, either by heaven or by earth or with any other oath. But let your "Yes" be "Yes", and your "No" be "No", lest you fall into judgement. '

This verse above teaches us that whenever we try to do something, let's not swear here and swear there, making use of that word swear to make yourself look more promosing but instead let your yes be yes and no be no in any decisions we make. Just like the new year resolution, I promise myself to say 'Yes' be 'Yes' and 'No' be 'No'. Simple teaching, difficult application. hmm..Now that's cool~! =)