Eros or Sore?

In case any of you don't know what is Eros, it's affection love in Greek. Like those guy like girl kind of love in a simple term.So today's post is all either about Eros~ or Sore~..sore as in tired of being in a relationship or being rejected too often or reject too often either way works..as long as it soress...lame..I know.Trying to sound poetic but end up weird, I know.


However, I would like to express my thoughts here about relationships that most single guys would long for when their hormones start to kick up during the teens. I remember those times when I was in my teens, being attached with a girl is a very common thing and sought after thing.Forget about study first la,think of girls later.When you're at that age, it's really hard to not want to be involve in a relationship especially your peers are having theirs and it will definitely influence you quite a bit.I guess most of us have our own personal experiences in relationships regardless of a good one or a bad one or long to have one.


I remember once when I was in form 5, I tried out with a close girl friend of mine and ended up in shambles as we weren't matured enough which left broken heart that took me 2 years to recover.It was a painful experience as I have never been so depressed before in my entire life even up till now.It took me 2 long years to let go and move on with life.I thank God for that trial eventually because when I look back, I'm glad I didn't stayed on the ground but He enabled me to stand up and walk again with a different perspective of life.


I consider myself blessed enough to go through that experience because the experience totally changed my perspective in relationships and courtship.Now if I face any rejection from a girl I like, I can get over it within a day or two.Its quite simple to convince myself to let it go now after that one time experience.Sometimes I think I can just be so logical instead of being emotional over such things although I know logics shouldn't be the main factor in a relationship (too much programming influence..sigh). So all along my years, I have some other crushes and being crushed at the same time but everything ended up in "sore' ness" (dunno whether got such word bo..but nvm la..Even the Rock can create his own word..Jabroni!) when the ones I'm interested in, rejected me and those who are interested in me, them I have rejected. Sigh* Is it so difficult to find someone who fit into my criteria meh?


Before you start concluding me to be a fussy person, let me tell you what I look in a partner of life. Firstly, of course a boleh-tahan and lookable person..People keep bombarding others by saying looks not important wan..it's the heart that matters..porah..my logic is very simple..if the person can't even attract you, you where got time to go and 'know' that person.So that's the difference between an idealist and a realist.Let's be realistic.


Secondly, the belief and state of a believer.I'm not into just merely a 'Christian'.No I don't want a super well taught girl in the Word as well.What I'm looking for is the love for God in that person's heart and manifested through her actions.That's all.Only this 2 criterias. Oh ya, lastly of course having the same stands and a teachable heart if different stand.This one is just an added bonus.

So far it's all about "sore'ness" only, haven't even touch the "eros'ness" part also..Haha. However, I know God has plans for me and all I need to do is just to wait upon His direction before I 'strike'! Muahhahaha.

As a conclusion, I only wish for a God centered relationship with my other partner having the same love, being one accord, of one mind towards God.Hey that sounds familiar..

" 1 Therefore if there is any consolation in Christ, if any comfort of love, if any fellowship of the Spirit, if any affection and mercy, 2 fulfill my joy by being like-minded, having the same love, being of one accord, of one mind. 3 Let nothing be done through selfish ambition or conceit, but in lowliness of mind let each esteem others better than himself. 4 Let each of you look out not only for his own interests, but also for the interests of others"

Phillipians 2:1-4

God Bless.. :)

End of July Post...

Exodus

"To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven"..Ecclesiastes 3:1

I will never forget the exodus that took place in this year, 2008. The exodus of 12 young people to another place where God has placed each of everyone of them where their destiny lies.

To be honest, I still do not know what to feel about the exodus. Whether to feel sad or to be filled with joy (obviously not!) or to feel discouraged when I'm faced with such situation. Yes, the youth group numbers will definitely be dwindling from now on but that's not what I'm thinking about. I believe that this is a challenge that God is putting me through as youth leader to face and I firmly believe that God is trying to make a point here with this current exodus. The One who is able to put down His life and is able to pick it back up is trying to prove a point to me.

It is as if God is trying to tell me that He is rebuilding His work and asked me to trust in Him. I always remind myself that the Lord's work belongs the the Lord and we who are given the charge to nurture it is responsible to keep it and work it out. It is never for us to take His glory upon ourselves on the work that flourishes. Yes, we may take pride in the work when it begins to bloom but we should always remember that it is the Lord that gave the growth. We planted but God is the one who gave the harvest. Sometimes we overlooked that it is the Lord that provides the fruit and we start to get cocky about it. Then as time passed by, we lazed in our comfort zone not doing anymore because we think that we have done 'enough'.

Well, the fact of the matter is this: If God chooses to take away, who are we to stop Him from doing so? And if God chooses to bless us, who are we to defy the Almighty God?The situation now is like a scene in the film 'Facing The Giants ', when the coach teaches his players to honor God whether they win or lose but what matters the most is that they give their best in the field. I wanna be like that too.I wanna give my best in this ministry that God has entrusted to me because at the end of the day, it is not men that I serve but God! Have to keep reminding myself that.

As closing, I'll just recommend you readers this great movie that have encouraged me alot in my walk of life.

Too bad it's just a picture..For more details, visit www.facingthegiants.com to buy. :)

If I Had To Die For Someone

As I was surfing the net, I've thought of searching for some old Petra songs since most of the albums I bought when I was young was still in cassette format!To make things worse, all my cassettes are in bad shape and my cassette players are all malfunction as well.So since I miss their melodies so much, I resorted to YouTube as my source of Petratainment. Hehe

One of the songs I missed most was this one,"If I Had To Die For Someone" which sounds almost identical with Matchbox 20's "Push" (only the intro part).This song plays a catchy tune,simply contains meaningful lyrics (no misleading phrases or complicated sentences),and finally a good voice to back it up! John Schlitt!! Fuah, that guy's vocals still going strong despite of his age. Check out his other songs in YouTube if you have time.

The song simply speaks of our willingness to die for someone who is much likely to be like ourselves.A sinner like myself to die for another sinner.Sometimes when I think about it, if I had to die for someone, can I do it?Of course if taking my life to save my parents, I would willingly do it because they are the ones that raised me up and loved me for who I am.However, in reality it is really not that easy to take the plunge even when you think you would do it.Well at least for me, there's still some fear preventing me from dying for someone.

How about dying for someone who hates you?Or dying for your enemies?It would be ridiculous and absurd because I might die in vain and I wouldn't know if dying for him/her did any good at all.He/she might even laugh or ridicule me for my stupidity.I will not be able to see the end result of my 'sacrifice' and will certainly regret doing so.

However,this wasn't the case for Jesus.He came into this world as a man so that He might taste death for everyone in this whole world.His enemies ridiculed and mocked Him as they crucified Him.They made fun of Him but yet He spake not a single word.He gave His life willingly for all his enemies and He was raised from the dead in the third day after his burial.He didn't took any revenge at those who crucified Him but yet He gave eternal life to those who believed in Him.Cool and sporting guy don't you think God is?He lived to see His end results.

He gave up His life for our sake so that by His death, we might live the life He wants us to live in.He is the only one who is able to gave up His life and take it up once again.